8.The Honest Truth
Where are you, God why do I feel so alone. And I find myself
here yet again,
shackled, like a dog returning to his vomit. Complacency has
taken hold of
everything that I am once again diluting my purpose of which I
live with
laziness. Is how it begins the steady decline of the state of my
mind has gone
on so long that I don't even realize that something is wrong. My
passion has
gone. My life has become the very thing I try so hard to help
people get away
from. An empty hallow Godless shell. My will is damning me to
Hell. My life my
wants and my will are damning me straight to Hell. My life my
wants and my will
are nothing without you. As I drift away in thought my heart
shows me, dreams
of how I wish things could be. As complacency grips me my flesh
regains its
control. Cause God you never left me but it was I who turned my
back on you
when I got lazy and stopped spending time with you. But how can
a relationship
stand when there is no communication. I have become the very
thing that is
keeping me from, feeling the mighty presence of God. For I am
the only thing
keeping me from seeking God. Nothing will happen if I am too
lazy. We must
first learn to seek God before anything else in this world. If
we don't wanna
lose our mind, in complacency. Any longer. It should be as His
scripture says
we must work out our salvation with fear and trembling before
the Lord. It is
not once saved always saved, that is the mindset of fools. Work
out your
salvation with fear and trembling, work out your salvation daily
before the
Lord.
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